are you happy you are a pedophile: is it ok to call you that

It's fine to call me a pedophile; it's what I call myself with little to no reservation. It's how I identify a part of my sexual continuum of attraction; which include adults of both genders, children of both genders. I am an equal opportunity pervert (lol).

Right now I am happy with how I feel about myself. If something untoward where to happen, and a great deal of people identified me as a pedophile in the pejorative sense, than that would make me unhappy by degrees.

have any mental health problems

That is a hard one. For years I was diagnosed up and down the gamut of manic depressive disorders, operational schizophrenia, or mood disorders. This started when I was about 19 years of age. Medication often did not help, and I was at a lose to understand. Within the past year, a breakthrou of sorts has been reached. My doctors discovered a lesion in my brain around the white matter area know as the amygdyla. It was touch and go actually, and only after getting rid of the cancer, parasite, abcess options did they settle on a lesion. It's there, they can't get rid of it, and it accounts for a lot of symptoms that come and go. Migraine like pains, mood swings, paranoia, depression, manic episodes. So, short answer is yes, I have mental health problems. It's physiological thou.

how low ...hehe, do you go? i mean if 4...is what ive read is a pop age start of..being attracted do most people think that 16 is the only age anyone should ever have sex...im not sure i hear no one telling me. limited

I like and love kids. Period. So my attraction is multifarious. There are some children as young as five years that I have found a sexual attraction to. If it were only sexual attraction I found, I would be very alarmed, and would probably be much less happy being a pedophile; quite possibly suicidal. But I find friendship, common interest, and joy, as well as a sexual component. This is not true with all children I meet, this attraction, just some instances. If you want to nail down an age (if you must). I find 8-10 year old girls and boys from 10-12 to be super sexy. It depends on the person really, all things considered. But I find ignorance and stupidity to be instant joy-killers, young and older alike. Understand that in theory I am pro-contact, yet in practice I remain non-contact and comport myself accordingly.

are you in touch with yourself ,who you were, when you were growing up?

I knew for some odd reason, that when I was ten years old, I would be attracted to females my own age, as well as much younger. It wasn't til I hit my twenties that I found certain types of men attractive, as well as young boys. I grew up confused however, and hated myself an awful lot. It did stunt my "growth" when it came to "normal" relationships, and I found dating and steady relationships to be a chore. At times I did persist if I found someone that was worth the task of me discarding tons of baggage; and this was very true with the case of my ex-wife; a woman I still consider to be a great friend and ally, with the feeling being mutal.

I accepted my pedophilic nature about maybe six years ago, and have made strides to understand it, how it affects my person, and how sexuality in general is affected by society, and how society affects sexuality. My only thesis statment on that is; Sex is mostly a commodity, and we are getting what we pay for. Disposable, knock-off imitations of something that could be far more real, far more genuine, and far less harmful if only we shed the need to make it a commodity.