Well

What i find hard about being an hebephile is the social isolation. Others always make me feel mentaly ill and like nothing. I know it's not a mental illness that it can't be cured and that it's a matter of control but when your old school mate tell you they are married and have like 5 children and me i find myself still attracted to girls of 14-15-16 years old at 27 when i should be also married with children. I know i will never be able to lead a normal life and to advance in life like i should. That is why i can't have friends because i just don't get along with other adults they make me feel mentally ill and nothing and make me see that my life sucks.

I'm lucky enough to have a teen that is interested in me because i look younger than my age and that i still am in my 20's which give me the ability to be around teens without too much outrage from the people. But i know once this one get out of my age of attraction it will be over and i will never have a love relationship of my life. Even if one would be interested in my little villag they will see look he is always around young girls when he should be around adults clearly a pedophile and it would not take long before my life turn to hell for real.