Re: What is really going on?

As Dante noted, most of us are not opposed to adult-child sexuality. However, we are opposed to non-consensual sex of any type (as with drunk girls), which is a separate issue, and we are also aware of the dangers of adult-child sex in our cultural climate.

You yourself may have fallen victim to this.

While I understand that you felt you needed to please your boyfriend, and this is not conducive to a healthy intimacy, why do you regret your period of promiscuity? Is it because you disliked it so much at the time? Is it because there was a lot of empty intimacy (attempts at intimacy which did not live up to your expectations)? Or is it because you were made to feel guilty in a cultural context that calls such behavior "slutty" or the like?

All of these reasons are valid, of course, but only in the first case is the fault in the sex act itself (and is not the same for every person). In the second case it is a general problem of not being able to achieve the intimacy that most human beings desire and mistaking sex for intimacy - which can happen at any age. In the third case, the fault lies with a cultural belief that sex is bad, and is not present in sex-positive cultures.

Only you can answer these questions, of course, and I will not presume to know your mind. Perhaps you have some insight that I have missed.