Yea you right , at first when I tried.........

Hi Mesmerised

You right about it being depressing when one just cuts oneself off completely from any kind of interaction, when I was still in turmoil about my feelings I stopped all interactions, even just looking and the result of that was chronic depression. I attempted suicide 4 times during 3 years and failed every time. The last time I was kept under supervision for 2 weeks and that gave me time to think things over.

Then slowly I found purpose for my feelings, and a way to use those feelings of child love to elevate myself to a different understanding of everything around me. Later I reflected on how change occurs in this world and why it does in the first place. Eventually my understanding brought me to the truth.

But now my understanding of the people around me allows me to cut myself off from all interactions without it having any emotional effect on me, except that it now makes me ever more so stronger seeing how easy it really is to change my own world.