My Response

I am flattered by your message, and I appreciate your support for my activism, Trucker. However, I am not ready to out myself to the online world at this point in time for two major reasons, both of which I will explain below.

For one thing, there are many different things that I support in addition to MAA rights and youth rights. I also support workers' rights, gay rights, women's rights and any number of other things. I have several hobbies that have nothing to do with GL that I work on dilligently, and though none of these things are of earth-shattering importance I still work to expand interest in these subjects and they do much to enhance my ability as a writer (which isn't extremely great to begin with). It's known to almost everyone whom I work with and hang around with that I'm a hebephile, but if I were to out myself to the world I would become known almost exclusively as a "pedophile" (MAA) activist, with all my other interests and struggles being sent to the background. This is what happened to Lindsay and Jack...they are both famous (or infamous, one might say) simply for being attracted to minors. How many people take into consideration Lindsay's enlightened political stances, for instance? Few people outside of this community do. He lives in infamy regardless of his beliefs simply because he made the fact that he is a pedophile so important. I'm not saying he did the WRONG thing...his activism probably helped this community quite a bit. However, I as an individual am not in a position to do this for many reasons that I'm sure those who know me well would understand (but I do not want to go into detail with these things on this board).

Secondly, I am not interested right now in spending my every waking moment fending off attacks by PJ in my personal life. They will put flyers in my neighborhood, call my job and try to get me fired, and try to ruin my relationship with my family and friends, all of whom are people that I love and value very much. Would they succeed? I doubt it, because almost everyone knows that I am a hebephile and almost everyone knows that I am ideologically pro-contact. However, my family doesn't need the grief right now. They do not need the pain of having to put up with PJ calling or writing them and telling them that I am a "child rape advocate." PJ never considers the pain they put the families of the people they out through. I guess they feel that any family of an MAA is unworthy of simple human decency and consideration. Nevertheless, I DO NOT want PJ hurting my family because of me.

This is NOT to say that I am AGAINST activism in real life. I will often defend MAA's and this community when I hear lies or misinformation being spread about them (as I recently did with my best friend when he said that he sees no difference between pedophiles and child molesters). I am proudly out as a hebephile in real life (everyone who knows me well knows that this is a fact) and I stand behind my pro-contact views in real life whenever I am asked about them. This obviously has an enormous impact on everyone who knows me, and very likely colors their perceptions of MAA's for the better.

As for my Solar Man stories, thank you for reading them. If enough people request more chapters, I will write them and submit them to the story drive. The thing is, however, that unlike Solar Man, I am NOT a real hero. I am simply an activist. I make mistakes, I sometimes mess up my friendships, and I am highly imperfect. I am in no position to put myself on a pedestal and try and to expound good values onto others. I try my hardest to be a good person and to do right by the people that I love and trust, but I sometimes fall short (more often than I'm happy with, in fact). I do not see myself as a hero, as much as I would like to be one and as much as I like reading and writing about heroes. Solar Man is an archetype that we can all aspire to be, but many of us will fall short of the ideal. Of course, it's more important to TRY than to succeed, and I do try hard. But the results are not always impressive. I try to be as humble as they come. I am a lightweight in the brains department compared to other people in this community such as JD420, Ella, LGsinmyheart, and Baldur, along with several others, and I look up to them much more often than anyone should be looking up to me to achieve results for them.

I will always try to be the best I can possibly be, but for the two reasons mentioned above, I am not in any position to be the official public "voice" for pedophilia and hebephilia. I like to think that my big mouth in real life speaks for itself, and I can only hope that I accomplish something worthwhile with my online activism under this nick.

Thank you again for your faith in me...it was appreciated. But I fear that you will have to look elsewhere for a hero.