Re: UK Murder victim turns out to be Paedo :(

I'm wandering off topic a little here, but I don't know if anyone else has experienced this kind of thing, but I have always felt very subconscious about my age and a constant sense of feeling "too old". It's a thing (can it be called an "affliction"?) that has always been with me at LEAST all the way back to when I hit 10. I still remember thinking to myself "Hell, I'm TEN now! oh God, that's DOUBLE FIGURES! And I now stand as a big goony dorky looking adolescent hovering over all those little kids running around playing their silly little meaningless games. My age in ink looks more closer to a 99 year old than a 9 year old...well say hello youth and goodbye to childhood".

But when I hit 20, I felt really over the hill and looked back to my early teens as being quite young (even though I felt quite old back at that actual time). When I hit 30, I'd think "hell, what's going on here? I used to think I was a tired old bastard at 22 but now it would be kind of nice stepping back a few years to that age again. I felt a total fossil at 30 but now in my forties I am thinking 30 isn't as bad to be as how I used to feel about it when I was actually 30. So basically I'm seeing a well established and clear pattern here.

But for the first time in my life I'm almost beginning to feel comfortable at being in my forties because I'm now thinking to myself "hey! what am I so BOTHERED about?? In 20 years time when I'm in my sixties I'll be looking back to now in retrospect and thinking "gee I'd give almost ANYTHING to be in my forties again!" So maybe it's all about too much preoccupation with how old we are for every moment of our lives. It seems that (at least for a small few of us anyway) we are always feeling "too old" almost our entire lives (which for those of you who haven't experienced it, is a real bugger of an impediment). So when I look at it this way, I think "heck, I should just be living for the day NOW and enjoying it to my very best ability, because one day in the future, I'm going to be reflecting back so favourably to the age I'm at now".