Re: Relationships and Pain (a rant)

Dissident, I don't know what to say - we already talked about this yesterday in chat. Empty words are impossible for me, and because I am a gloomy and sulky northerner, I cannot even say "hugs", like some others have said.

In the past I was attracted to women, and the same has happened to me too - many times. I remember that sometimes I was quite desperate and even contemplated suicide. Oh no, not again! I thought. Some girls (here I mean women) simply did not like me enough, and sometimes my alcoholism was incompatible with long relationships. And my longest and most serious relationship ended, because I moved out of the house - I was sober then. I still loved that woman, but I moved out of hour common home. Why? I don't want to go to the complicated details.

So I know how you feel, I can still remember it, but I really don't know what to say. If there is some sullen man's equivalent to the word "hugs" I say it now.