Re: Relationships and Pain (a rant)

Thank you for your response and your support, Floyd. It's much appreciated, as always. You always give me support when I need it, even though we don't talk much on the board otherwise, and I want you to know that it means a lot to me that you always take the time to give me support and advice when I need it.

You may be correct about why so many of these women just leave me behind so abruptly, though as I said to Catcher elsewhere in this thread, I really wish they would be more honest with me and let me know that they are looking for something temporary, or that they agree to be just "friends with benefits" and not call me names like "typical guy" or "man whore" whenever I suggest that might NOT be the best thing, to keep me from falling too much in love with them and therefore getting badly hurt when they decide to move on like they always do. If this last gf of mine was kind enough to show me that level of honesty, we might still be talking now and she wouldn't have felt the need to simply vanish without explanation. But no, she had to insist on a monogamous relationship and tell me a bunch of lies, such as how she NEVER loses interest in a guy once she falls for him or that she is capable of monogamy at this point in her life (and I fully realize that the majority of young women that age are NOT yet ready for monogamy). This woman, though much younger than me, had A LOT more sexual experience than I do and probably a better quality of life experience, so there was NO excuse for her not to know herself better than that. I know I shouldn't take this personally, but it just makes me angry and very, very sad that every single time I allow a woman to talk me into giving them my heart, and for saying bad things about me if I refuse to do the "all or nothing" thing, they end up doing something like this to me.

I know I'm not perfect, but I think I have a lot to offer a younger woman (though older women have done this to me too) and I wish they would be more honest to me about how they tend to behave when they are in committed relationships and not tell me simply what they think I need to hear to convince me to agree to a type of relationship that they are not ready for, even though they may genuinely want it.

Sorry for saying basically the same things here that I said in my response to Catcher elsewhere in this thread, but right now I am very hurt and feel very betrayed that this happened to me yet again when I believed this woman when she told me that she was in love with me and would smash any woman that tried to take me from her. And this is just the way I feel right now :(