Hiatus/Junction sounds almost like marriage...

Except from the hurtful part, it almost sounds like marriage. (And marriage hurts, too, in a very slow way... It's like erasing the male's wishes and life and strength, joy by joy, freedom by freedom.)

I feel the same, about all the dreams I had, all my plans, effectively crushed by marriage. Little by little. If I can give one adivce to the younger GC'ers: DON'T MARRY!

If I could do it over, I guess I would try to find a girl who shared my MAA'ness. Then marriage would have been a lot easier. And if I didn't find a girl like that, I would stay single.

All this secrecy in a marriage isn't a very good thing.

I feel more lonely now with my MA, than I would if I was single...

I know that many MAA'ers are exactly that, attracted to minors, only, so this is excluding marriage with any adult partner. But some of us are MAA's and also has the ability to marry. Which is ok, I think. But marriage will probably give you a lot of pain and troubles...

So why care to do it in the first place?

I know that people are different. Some people are not able to live alone, others are doing perfectly fine by oneself.

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About the fantasy world, I feel the same, I run into these fantasy worlds inside my mind.

I am thinking about starting making animated 3D-worlds, just to try to visualize my fantasies, and dream worlds.

I have been trying to get into lucent dreaming, without luck. (Lucent dreaming is a way to control your dream world while sleeping, and to remember a lot of it while awake.)

Any one have other suggestions? Except from starting Pedotopia? ;)

Hugs, B.