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Sigh.. Hello..

Posted by Oakowi on 2011-October-17 11:19:28 EDT, Monday
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Hi my friends..

In the past, I would read some posts from people stressing out, or having major personal problems, that they needed solving or figuring out. Those situations would be scary or terrifying. Most of the time, it's not their fault, or they were just.. unfortunate. Well lately, I was careless, and I'm in a situation that is totally stressing me out. I'm losing sleep over it as well. I do not want to worry anybody, but I need some time to figure this out. This is why I wasn't posting much recently. I still think about the people on Girl Chat, I know I can trust. I will only have time to read a few posts, because I always have to put thought into my responses to posts, and I try to be as comforting as I possibly could. But the demanding attention from friends and family, is giving me very small windows of time for myself, (and my computer) and to figure out how to get out of the mess I got myself into. The situation is.. I was thinking I could trust a friend I had for a short time, (Normally, I have to thoroughly know people before I even confide in them, even a little bit)

We seemed to click, and it seemed, he understood me, and we had alot in common.. (My red flags didn't go off.. They should have) There was a secret about me, I didn't want him to know, and I'm afraid I think he might have found it out. The jerk didn't return any of my calls all of a sudden. The silence from him is deafening. So the paranoia side of me is starting to emerge. I am very nervous, and worried, and thinking that he was not who he said he was. I try to be careful, and like I tell my friends here, that you can never be too careful. I feel I might have slipped up. This is what's going on with me right now. I try to be here as much as I can.. but this situation, has me puzzled. I don't like living everyday looking over my shoulder because of what I am. It's hard, and I will fight to the bitter end. This is my WTF situation, and I know most of you, had your WTF situations. I hope I can get through this, without getting a nervous breakdown. I hope to be out of this miserable storm soon, better than later..

You guys are totally awesome!! I miss posting, and haven't been able to even read much of the good posts here. This sucks feeling like this. I hope everyone is doing ok.. I don't want any of my friends here, to go through what I'm going through now. This feeling is bad, and not healthy. Sorry for this downer of a post. But I want you guys to know, I haven't forgotten anyone, and to let you know what's going on with me. I will try my best to figure this out, and be back as soon as possible. Until then.. everyone.. take care of yourselves..

Lowers head..












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