GM - cousin

This summer I took a trip with the extended family out to another state to an area we go to a lot of times for family reunions. Has a lot of mountains and streams and hiking areas but not many people actually know about it. I have three cousins. One is late elementary school age, one is early middle school and the other is in early high school.

The youngest one is just like me in every way. Everyone says so. Even in the way she looks. They say she gets lost in thought a lot, feels things deeply and likes talking to adults more than other kids. And pushy as hell, just like I was, hehe, and can talk your ear off and will if you give her a chance.

I was sad because I wasn't as involved in her life as much as the other two cause I was already off to college in another state by the time she was no longer a baby blob.

Well, none of the other kids or adults wanted to go hiking, so we got in our swimsuits and went up into the trails which run along a creek coming down from the mountains. Her mom had taken her there before as well as her a few same age friends, but no one would swim around in the deeper water or get under the waterfalls with her. Now, it IS freezing cold even in the dead of summer since it comes from cave systems far up a mountain, but still. Where is your sense of adventure?!?!

She was so happy and surprised that I knew all the good swimming eddies and would climb up on the rocks to put my head in the waterfall. We went in like three different holes and dared each other about how long we could stay under the falls.

It was really beautiful. She was wearing a two piece, too, and I really noticed her in that way for the first time. She's kinda baby-fat but not fat-fat, sorta like I was at that age and she's so graceful and full of energy and smiles and questions. She also wanted me to bounce her on my knee in the water quite a bit, which I felt a little awkward about. Tried to toss her more than bounce her. She had the most hilarious phrase, too. When I dunked her once she came up and said "Oh Lord, I got water in my glory!" Ah, how religion permeates things in the weirdest ways.

It started to rain so we hiked out and got a milk shake before heading back to camp.

As I've gotten to be older, I am attracted to a lot of people. I see men my age as well as men old enough to be my father. I like women cute and younger than me as well as older women, especially soft butches and femdoms. I have a special place in my heart for F2M transmen. But I've only started to appreciate the amazing beauty of girls, even ones as young as elementary. I play the babygirl or care for adult "littles" in age play but it's different.

One of the MAAs in my life only likes upwards of about 12 or 13 when secondary sexual characteristics kick in, which is fine, but there's something really unique and beautiful both physically and mentally from about 8-11 or 12 that I can't explain.