Much Love? Please try harder.

"I do not think you are being fair to Girl Chat or even being fair to yourself to try to air out your confusion or frustration about VoA on this board."

I am not being fair to GC? I just wanted to know if I am really such a asshole. People don't seem to think so here. Again, I've done much worse in LifeLine, and they still love me. Is VOA trying to be like a Westboro Baptist Church family, one strike and you are out? Your admins need more compassion than that. How am I suppose to clear this up when you won't answer my emails? The reason why I use GC is because I have no way of contacting you.

"But anyway, I have sent you 2 e-mails explaining to you that I was not present when all this happen. I had to rely on the reports from the ChatMods and the Chat logs."

I never received them.

"After the ChatMod file this report, It was voted on by the Admins that you should be removed from our site. All the Admins voted unanimously that you should be ban from VoA. The fact that you requested that your nick to be removed a day before an Admin process your banning does not change anything."

I didn't know that you were going to ban me. So I understand that.

"Being in the chat room is a special privilege we give to members we feel we can trust. Trust is EXTREMELY RARE in the CL community. And I hope you understand why it is rare."

It's not that rare. I trust most of the people in this discussion board, including you.

"Some members in the chat room will let down their guard and will share very private things about their lives while they are in that room Your action in the chat room back then was a HUGE breach of trust and it made those members feel extremely uncomfortable. So we take that trust and this privilege very seriously. When you act in the way that you did in the chat room, it puts that "TRUST" in grave danger and it harms the bonding that take place in that special room. You destroyed that trust for those members who were present in that chat room that day."

You should also take into consideration of how much many people like me would torn apart emotionally after reading this. Did you ever take my feelings into consideration too? I am seriously crying inside. I know that may seem hard to believe, but I've told this to a number of pedophiles on here. I am not your ordinary pedophile. I am quite childlike on the inside. I am much more child than most pedophiles. I can be really fragile. I am torn inside now. It's not because you banned me from a really visually-appealing CL forum, it's the fact that you have hardly any compassion.

What kind of trust are you talking about here. So because I got really upset that one time in the chat, I am no longer trustworthy. That pretty much sums up what I stated earlier. Oh well, LifeLine members are definitely much more understanding than your admins.

If you are really worried about me chatting, just take away my chatting privileges. Why ban me from the entire site.

"So I hope you seriously think about that for awhile."

I've been thinking about it for 1.5 years now. I am not getting any younger. I am really sorry.

"BTW, you were not banned solely for fighting with the member(S) in the chat room that night. It was also the combination of your actions on the board under the various nicks you had that the Admins also used to help them with their decision to have you removed."

Various nicks? That makes it sound a lot more than two. There were only two nicks. It really doesn't matter anyway.

"Your distrusting behavior in the chat room was also notice by different Mods on the board."
I was only in the VOA chat one time. That was it. I must have did a lot that day! No. It was just a small flame.

"It was these reports created by the Mods that the ADMIN use to help them give the "YES" vote to have you banned along with your action in the chat room that day. You must remember that the Admins and the Mods do not know when you are drunk or sober; they do not know how many bottles of Jack Daniels you have stack in front of you while you posting at the board or in the chat room."

You do realize that I only drink 4, maybe 5 times a year? I only drink typically on some holidays and especially on my birthday because I'm depressed because I am not fortunate enough to have a child girlfriend like some of you do. It helps to drink those days, somewhat.

Again, because I posted on the "Lean On Me" section a little more than you wanted me to, you have to ban me.

"So I support the decision of the Admins, the Mods and the Chatmods back when they voted to ban you from VoA. They were only doing their jobs as the members and I have asked them to do"

Why would you support a decision like that. I could not ban someone that easily. I have a much greater feeling of empathy and forgiveness than your admins clearly do.

"Much Love,
-sL- "

You might want to rethink your signature. If you are addressing that to me, then I cannot take that seriously. Although, I still have love for you and the rest of my brothers and sisters on here, you don't love me. You think that you really did the right thing, but really you just made a 10 yo man feel unloved and miserable. This is the same feeling that feel towards anti's. You don't want to see me like this.

I still have my place at GC and especially LL. I have friends who do love me, but I'm convinced that it's really conditional like all relationships. I just hope that the love here is much less conditional than your love!

*Hypersonic walks into a corner and cries.

Literally