It happened... and I am petrified

It finally happened, right when I thought it wouldn't and I was 'fine' with living without companionship..

She is legal, my AoA is most often 11-17, and she falls within that.. we have known each other a while, and.. well.. Ill put it in her words..

(We were saying goodbye after a day out with mutual friends, we both have a diverse group of mixed age friends, who are fine with us being together)
"Bye bye, I love you.. Oh, now I have embarrassed myself, I mean, not like that, but soon"

I am scared, very scared.. I don't want to spoil it or anything, we are quite similar, very.. and I think back to when I was her age, I wouldn't have dated someone in their 30's (I am aware of the dangers of posting online and will only post vaguely)

I just see her as so much better than I.. I'm so scared to love her, lose her.. I am petrified

I'm falling in love.. to hold her, its bliss, looking into those eyes we just melt..