Lifes to short to be miserable

I've been kind of depressing lately, I think smoking all the time isn't helping. I find I'm feeling worse when I smoke instead of better. I mean it fucks me up a bit but then I feel miserable. I'm not going to have anymore(yeah right you say) but I don't have any money so thats not aroblem haha. I don't know, I had a little depressing thing going on, still there a bit but I'm feeling a lot better and I've decided instead of dwelling over every little problem in the life I'll start trying to be a bit more constructive. Focus that energy on figuring out what to do. I find that's when I start getting the most upset, looking forward and thinking god I'm so dumb or w/e else. But if I go, okay well even if this doesn't happen you can still do this, or how am I going to work towards solving this problem? Then I start feeling better, like I'm not being totally useless.

And if all else fails just remember that lifes to short to be fucking miserable all the time. Gotta have a little fun sometimes, even if it's just watching a funny ass video on youtube. Live it up baby :) Other people are fucking cold on the street right now, as long as we stay above that line, it's all good.

I've got to start being a little happier. That doesn't mean I loose reality and act like I have no problems, but in the grand scheme I'm better off then a lot of people so I shouldn't dive into sees of depression. I cab do lots of things other people can't. I sleep easy at night. Some people can't catch a break.

Its weird because every time I start to fuck my world up something happens to keep me going. Somebody enters my life, or some answer comes, not always what I was looking for, or in the places I was looking for it but there it appears. Other people try so hard and never catch a break, and sometimes I don't do jack all and somebody helps me up when I'm down.

I don't know, I loose hope in a lot of situations but if I had a guardian angel he would be the guy that waits till the last second and goes how am I going to fix this?? Okay send this guy in, and something random but nice happens. Lucky me right?