A very happy and joyful new year to all Child-Lovers and friends!
I spent the best New Year's Eve I ever had with my 10yo LGF. We've had lots of fun and played games until 12 o'clock and I held her on my lap most of the time, sometimes our heads cuddled close together. :-)
Now, looking back at the past year, I'm very thankful for all the positive events that brought us together. I'm a different person now, I can feel the wounds healing. I'm experiencing feelings I had never felt before or I had forgotten.
I love her dearly!
It was her who saw me and she simply didn't let go until she had me and I came out of my shell. On the second day I met Josie, I fell in love with her. There followed a golden summer and so many girl-moments that would fill the mainpage if I would write them all down. :-D
Long trips, bike rides, running in the rain, horse-play (lots of), swimming in the lakes, watching movies and caressing her hand, brushing her hair and (a treasured memory) watching her sleep next to me.
After the first crazy falling-in-love and feeling and crying like a teenager my feelings for her turned into a less crazy but deeper feeling of love.
Another cool thing is that the people around us don't seem to be bothered with us being together. It's obvious that we like each other very much and people seem to find it "cute" and "nice".
She very much demands my attention and wants lots of body contact and cuddling, which is bliss for my soul. She doesn't seem to be interested in erotic or sexual contacts (yet) and I won't bother her with that. Which is not a problem for me because my interest in her is mainly non-erotic. Of course I get excited sometimes but it's not a problem.
I should be very happy (and often I am) but I'm also very sad when she's not with me. I miss her like crazy. I yearn for holding her again and there's nothing better than her screaming out my name and running towards me at full speed and jumping up in my arms!
How much she already grew in these months...
Looking back at the year I can clearly see the positive impact that our friendship had on both of us. It changed us and our lives for the better - I can only hope, that it will remain and not be spoiled.
It showed me how good child/child-lover friendship can be, and it all feels so right. I know there'll be the day when I'll have to let her go - but we'll both have been grown (up) a bit more until then.
I truly had given up any hope before she "happened" to me. Dear friends: don't give up believing in miracles - they can happen. Someday.
Love & Respect
Jester's Tear
-- Know that your soul is indestructible. --
-- ...and see: it's beautiful ! --