Re: One thing you can be sure of is that

Stahntii, my comments urging others to stab me in the back wasn't aimed toward you. I'm just saying I know there are people who do that sort of thing. I'm reminded of something Jesus said about turning the other cheek, it means the same thing, to open yourself up to those who are seeking to hurt others. I will take a hit for the team. I'm not saying anybody should want to, and I don't think anybody will. I am ready to place myself in harms way because my life is one that was already filled nicely once, and has since been destroyed beyond repair anyway.
I hold onto the tattered sleeves of ghosts that haunt me, the only source of relief from the pain is knowing I have a place within the war zone that rages over children, the future of humankind. But deeper still, the struggle negotiating navigations through relationship drama exactly like this between you and I right now. Trying to work problems out together civilly finding solutions for all conflicting forces involved. I call that the purpose of life. I already failed at life, subconsciously perhaps I believe that if I can warn others from making the same mistakes I've made, perhaps I won't burn in hell.