I don't believe in souls. You are wrong.

I can't even say my age. I've been asked in public about my age, and I hesitate to answer. Some woman said to me "Are you like 20?" I was absolutely miserable when she said that. I responded with some like "you are not even close."

I am so fucking disgusted that I started shaving my legs a few years ago. The other kids at school just laughed at me and said I was gay.

A few years later, I tried permanently removing my facial hair. It was an incredibly painful process, which failed miserably.

Then this idea of being a kid started to become apparent to more people. I started being a little affectionate with my friend Justin, who I thought was really close to me. Later, I stopped being friends with him feeling depressed.

I found that my other friends would always tease me in the group, and not the others. They seem to be attracted to me for some reason. There was one time when they started tickling me. For some reason, they liked to tickle me. They could tell there was something really different about me.

Sometimes I would use words like "play" instead of "hang out". Not long ago, my mom corrected me. She said that adults say "hang out". I actually use both today.

There are many more details.

I have no friends because I feel depressed that they can't see me for who I am. I feel unloved and worthless by the cruel system that will treat me so harshly. I feel unloved by the entire world.