I feel like I am many people at once sometimes two

thanks dante

i'd like to add, the internal struggle which leads us to sorrow, through anger or hate or whatever it maybe, it is the same negative darkness all around no matter the nature of any said struggle, as opposed to maintaining that internal dialogue that is positive or joyful, and given to light. keeping joy within and outwitting sorrow is a never ending struggle in life, the remedy is keeping mindful there's got to be a centralized source of self-reference inside the frame of your own body at all times.
losing sight of it for a moment, neglecting to abide the Simple Order, inevitably leads to disarray, loss of self-control.
ability to return to center continually over time unceasingly, this divides a line between what is you and what is not-you, that part of the world that truly is your part in it, as opposed to everything that isn't, which can be denied. but the source within you must be undeniable, otherwise it is untrue, and if it is untrue then it isn't right, and if it isn't right, this way leads us into confusion and sorrow.
It is nothing more than personal honesty, knowing the true limits of the physical geometries of your own human bodymind. Holding onto honesty over time is wholesomeness, wholesomeness synergies tenderness, which is the true heart of love and compassion in the world.