i agree with you diss....

(for the duration of this message i am going to refer to myself as a pedophile(someone who is sexually attracted to pre-pubescent girls)...since the term gl in ur eyes is not something that fits who i am....or is at least up for debate...which i think is a little foolish, seeing as how i don't see a websters dictionary definition for the term, which tells me it is up to ones interpretation. in my eyes a gl is someone who is sexually attracted to little girls, yet does not ever see him self hurting, taking advantage of or forcefully raping an underage girl and more-over finds an unmatched, indescribable joy deep in his heart and soul when being around lg's....but again since you feel i might not meet "your" criteria then i'll keep it simple....i'm a pedophile)

as oppose to launching my "shoulder mounted canon" as you say, i will try my hand at calm, cool, collective and straight to the point.

if everything i have ever posted here has been simply a lie then, yes....it would not be good for GC for many reasons.

i know for myself if there was someone here who was not sexually attracted to lg's and only sharing these stories for their own pleasure and trying to inflame or entice other pedophiles into false realities then i too would be turned off by said person.

i think reading complete fiction in that sense is a waste of my time. frankly, i don't read fiction even in my "real life"...i think i have read a total of about 3 fiction books start to finish in my 28 yrs on the planet. don't like to read much really....i'm more of a movie guy.

with that said unfortunately for both sides this is only an anonymous site. and you can try till your blue in the face to win people's respect but it would be impossible for you to win them all.

therefore, i'm not left with many options. i can run away and feel shunned by other pedophiles for not believing me or i can simply look on the bright side of things...which is obviously what i always do, lol.

there are 2 things i know in my heart. one, the things i have shared about my life are true...and 2, you don't believe them, lol. and frankly, if that's the worst thing to ever happen in my life, i'm a lucky guy!

i will say again, as far back as i can remember...i'd say about 9 or 10 i have been sexually attracted to lg's. my first sexual experience was when i was 6 with my older girl cousin who was about 12.

as i got a little older 14-16, i knew my attraction was not "normal" but i figured maybe it was because i was still fairly young and would go away as i became an adult. contrary to that as i grew into my adult life my attraction became stronger and it became more evident to me that this was no phase...this was something that was deeply rooted and hard wired into who i am, yet i was still not knowing how to feel about it and trying to not pay attention to it. until i found GC.

then i realized pedophiles were all around me and that i wasn't alone...i didn't have to feel bad about who i was and could love and embrace my self for it. yet also had to face the harsh reality that it is a life of burden in many ways.

for the record to give an added perspective on where i come from and who i am about 75% of people in my family have been involved with pedosexuality, as either the adult or the child. immediate family, distant relatives, uncles, aunt's, grand-parents, great grand-parents, cousins, second-cousins, great uncles, great aunts, nieces, nephews...etc.

i share that because for one, GC played a big roll in helping me understand that my family is not special in that way and also that it was something that was so taboo to talk about in the family and now i am probably the only one to ever embrace it in the way that i have and really own it. and for that i'm proud. i feel i am the first generation to label themselves a Girl Lover...but again for the sake of this message i will simply say i'm a pedophile.

in closing i would like to say for the record....i am in a committed relationship with another pedophile. and we are having a child.

also just in case anyone is wondering yes i am sexually attracted to my gf and other adult girls but not near as much as little girls, my sexual attraction to adult woman is not eve in the same ball park as mine for lg's. my gf knows this...she knows that i have a very special place in my heart for lg's and she will never fill that space as hard as she tries and she is ok with that.

she actually told me the other day that if we have a daughter she knows our daughter will be number one when it comes to my love and affection....and she is ok with that. i of course told her that as parents i think both of us should put our kids first but i will never make her feel unappreciated or less than. she will always be the mother of my child and i will respect and love her for that.

and lastly i will give you this....at times the way i explain things can be on the erotic side, to which i think i have gotten much better at toning down over the years, btw. my only explanation, put simply, is i am sexually attracted to little girls and get excited when i talk about them.

also, the dis-belief expressed by your self and others just compounds my feelings of true appreciation for my life.

it's actually funny to think that other pedophiles are so blown away by the things i have experienced that they can't believe it. part of that is funny to me...but of that is also sad.

i know 2 things, i share a special kind of love with my gf and her and i in some time late march or so have a 50-50 chance of being told that we will have a daughter.

and if everything works out the way we hope, i Justincredible, will be holding in my arms my very own daughter to love and raise into a woman.

which i agree even for myself is ABSOLUTELY UN-FUCKING BELIEVABLE!!!!!! :)

except for me, i don't have the luxury of believing it's not true....because whether it's a boy or girl it's coming....and not only are diapers expensive but in the next 7 months i need a car on the road, an apt in a safe neighborhood and money saved!

which luckily i have recently found a good full time job, doesn't pay much, but if i'm smart with my money will be plenty to have a loving, happy home for my family and i am proud of myself!

and frankly diss...you should be too.

Justin