This is the story of my life. (GM and some)

A GM mixed in with some analysis of my life.

It started off with the movies. I took Q and S to see a movie. Q likes when I carry her, so I carried her wherever. Sure my arms were killing me, but to feel her so close to me is amazing. The smell of her lovely hair, the softness of her skin, the tightness of her grip.

After the movie we went to go get burgers. While holding her she starts bouncing and says, "This is MY man!" Then she squeezed me. I heard a soft sight escape her lips as she rested her head on my shoulders.

In the Burger place we are sitting at the table. The place was pretty jammed. I was talking with S and Q about school, life, people, and whatever. How many kids can say they have an adult to talk to them completely respectfully. To not treat them like potential adults but like the humans they are.

I was tired. A lot of walking and carrying Q. Seven year olds are not light. I threw my arms around Q and rested on her shoulder. She leaned her head on me and started scratching my arm while I scratched her back. I almost fell asleep haha.

People were looking at us. I don't give a shit. Fuck them. I felt prying eyes. I was 3 seconds away from just standing up and telling them all how deep in love I was with her. Not all eyes were prying though. I looked at two young women (maybe late teens or early twenties) who gave sweet smiles when our eyes connected. I smiled back and just snuggled up to Q. Sorry ladies but you can't compare! They were attractive though haha

On the walk home I told Q I could no longer carry her, so she just held my hand. I had my other arm around S and we talked. I didn't want to leave her out. She was my first LGF and I still love her and she still loves me.

At her house Q was feisty. She was dancing and rolling around and jumping on me. Her mom commented that she isn't normally like that. S said that I get her too loose (I know that sounds wrong but you guys know what she meant). I guess love does that to people.

This is what I do. I just love and make people happy. Sure I am much more affectionate with little girls than guys should be but fuck it. I am going to be myself as much as I possibly can.

I guess I am lucky I am attractive. No, not I guess, I know I am lucky.

Take those two women. I am attractive and in good shape. I can only imagine their reactions if I had been ugly or fat. I bet they would have not looked at us the same way.

It's called the "halo" effect. People often assume that those who are attractive are "better" people than ugly people. No it is not guaranteed that all people think like that. It just happens a lot.

Now that we are becoming more attached... it is becoming increasingly difficult to get her off my mind. I feel like my life is just waiting until I am with her. Nothing else is as important or fun. I wonder how she feels? I don't want her to feel like this and I don't think she does. Kids are more in the moment.