You are amazing.

I... needed to read this. I feel as if this was put here for me. I don't actually believe that you see, but it is such a perfect coincidence.

I know you don't know me, but I have gone back and read many of your posts. I don't usually look up to people, but you are one of the few I look up to.

I have a great life for a law-abiding MAA. I see six little girls aged 4-12 on a weekly basis, and another three every few months. All of them love me and I love them dearly. This isn't including the girls I see at the schools I work at, but sometimes I feel as if the closeness I get to feel with the many girls I see is a slap in the face to the expressions of love I truly want to show. Today I was so heavily depressed. I don't often get depressed, maybe once or twice or three times a year max, and it doesn't last for more than a day or two. Today it was powerful though.

I was with my friends and family, no little girls but I did get to see Ma, K, and L over the last three days. I didn't get to see Q who I am in deep love with, that might have had an a hand in this depression. I was actually really happy today, and then something hit me hard. My mood sunk and I came to my room to write on GC asking for some support but instead I fell asleep. Then I come on GC just to read and this post was here.

I don't know what it is, but the way you write feels so right to me. Your words speak to me and I feel so similar to you. It's as if you are writing things about me I don't know about or know how to express myself.

I feel so much better now. Thanks man.