OK, so no 3rd chance. got it.

Oh, you are very well qualified, I think. I feel so deficient for not understanding these things. Since my 20's I felt that I wanted to be chosen to understand the teachings. But they always escape me. I don't think it is intelligence because people in my life think I'm pretty 'smart'. But then, scientists are now saying that pedophiles as a group are not as smart as 'normal' people.

I need to find out if my pedophilia is a curse or a gift. It is both at different times.

Soon now i will have my grandchildren with me again for a couple of days. I would never harm them or have my will with them but they are so lovely and in my AoA. I always treat them with respect and never touch them with lust but ohh, I love the hugs and cuddles. They are my world when I have them. Am i a pedo bacause I am not chose to understand? Although I have couched my question to hide my pedophillia, no one has ever answered that for me.

Maybe I should go back to church? Concerned Aunt? Don't be humble. You have great insight and i would be honored if you shared it with me.

You might be saying to yourself at this point that you should have never gotten involved with these crazy pedos. But I broke through and became a member of this forum to get help. For me. I have hidden away too long and there is no one to talk to in the real world. I hope you understand.