Re: Hypothetical thoughts

I am very glad you enjoyed my rambling.

But, kind friend, do not feel badly because of my stay in prison. Actually, it did me lots of good. I value my life now more than I ever did. I value the time I have left (another 20 to 30 years, I hope!) and am filling it with things I WANT in my life. My job. My wife. My time here...

And, I needed to go to prison because I knew I should have stopped my involvement with my little partner. In some ways, I was abusive to her. I wanted to stop but I was addicted to her. I even came close to driving into a concrete bridge foot on a highway but chickened out. At the time, I was Christian and so I prayed to God that he stop me because I could not. When I got arrested, I welcomed it (actually drove into their police trap set for me) and (erroneously?) considered it God's answer to my request.

I am here, now, full of good life, legal, happy, with a knowing and loving family and some very good friends here.

Thank you for being my friend.