Re: Ping: Matthew Hutton

Hi Sancho,

And big hugs to you my friend ((Hugs))

KBA will not grow out of this problem that has plagued him long before he showed up in the GL community.

It is our own fault though!

When KBA came on the scene here at GC, we were overjoy that we had an underage CLer joining our ranks. We were blinded by this wonderful gift. Not only was he a very underage CLer, but he was willing to show his face on YouTube and be a strong activist for the CL cause. Most of us at that time have chosen to ignore the obvious reason why KBA appeared in our community. We sadly did not care about the fact that despite his young age here was a person who desperately needed something far more important than his wanting to fight for the CL cause. The need he had that we all ignored was the fact he is a person who needs to seek out attention. Attention that was clearly lacking in his family life with his mother and friends around him. This "need" he had to be in the spot light was more important to him than the CL cause. But most of us knew this but chose to ignore it because of our own needs of wanting a savior at that time. So we build him up and his fan club grew larger in the CL community. Even Rookiee (Our first CL radio DJ) wanted KBA to play a bigger role in the CL community. KBA has reached a cult-like following faster than Lindsay did when we thought that "Lindsay" was our savior.

But KBA is paying a heavy price for his quick and undeserving rise to stardom when all of this came crashing down. KBA was only 17yo when the crash happen and because of the stigma society place on being a CLer, (AKA a Pedophile no matter what the age) society has already killed his future before it had a chance to start.

If I had a time machine to go back in time to talk to KBA the day he joined the CLer community, I think I would have spoken out loud my feeling as to him coming here. I would have warned him to try and fix the other problems in his life before he tried to explore his CL sexuality. I would have warned him to take life a little slower. To try to see the real value he has to offer this world instead of believing in the bombardment of negative of feeling and thoughts he gets from his family and friends that is partly to blame for the reason why he seeks out the spotlight.

I do feel sorry for KBA because I feel guilty about not warning him the day he showed up in the community. I wish I would have told him that this was not some simple game he can one day turn off once he got his ego fed by us. This game has real world consequences and these consequence will last a life time.

So let me take this time to say, I'm sorry to KBA. I'm sorry that I wanted a savior so badly that I was willing to ignore what was clearly the real reason why you showed up here in the community. I'm sorry that I did not warned you about the fact that this war was REAL. This real war will leave REAL wounds. Once you have been pierce in this war, the wounds will not heel easily.

I'll hoped that someday you will forgive me and others for not telling you the real reason why we adored you back then. It was NOT ABOUT YOU that we adored so much. But it was the selfish needs of the community to quickly replace our fallen savior at the time (Lindsay). You got what you came here for at that time, and it was not your desire to fight for CLer rights but you got the attention you so desperately needed back then. But we too got something out of the deal and that was a "temporary savior" in which some may say it "fits" the purpose.

But I often look back at your time here in the CL community and ask myself was it worth it? What were the long term gains for you and more importantly the community? What did we (You and community) get out of "OUR" wrongful needs?

I think we all lost greatly for putting our own needs ahead of what is right and just for KBA and more importantly the community.

But sadly here we are again, KBA in the above posts is seeking out the spot light.

Will B4UACT make the same mistake as we did!!!????!!!!??????????????

Much Love,
-sL-