Jealousy is a problem.

Her time is hers to spend with who she wishes.

Do I miss her when she's gone? Of course I do. But I don't begrudge her others who love her and make her feel good.

As for moodiness being noticed by her. Yes, that's an issue.

It particularly affects Pedos because as a child her time is ultimately up to other adults to dispose of. She is not yours as often as you'd like, and she's not yours as often as she might like.

These frequent absences fan the flames of limerence and introduce a desperation that isn't present in adult relationships with adults ( or even a crush on a classmate she may see 5 times a week. )

There were times where Beatrice wanted her old BF back ( me before limerence, ) and I wanted to be him again too.

In a way it was best to back up to friends and let it be what it will be.

I'm not attached to plans with her. But I have fond memories, a friendship that still exists and the belief that if she ever changes her mind, I'll still be here ( though not holding my breath. )

Remaining on good terms is important. And so is working on yourself.

I still have the friendship bracelet that Bea tied around my wrist more than half a lifetime ago.

Dante