GirlChat #601095
"I hate it. I hate the fact that I feel any jealousy over her at all.
But I don't know how to get rid of it." By identifying with her and for her, rather than with the others she spends time with. " * Squee * My cousin told me the funniest joke last weekend. Wanna hear it?" You can either focus on her smiles, laughter, renewed energy and the knowledge that she's still thinking of you, or you can wish it was you rather than the cousin who spent some hours over the weekend. But wishing for the later basically throws your heart in with strangers rather than with your love. Though to be fair, one of the things that threw me about Beatrice was how affectionate she was with all her friends. It led me more than a few times to either dismiss her feelings about me before I knew about her crush, or to assume she was renewing her romance with me when I was in the "friend zone" decades later. My family aren't as physically affectionate over friendship. So there was a little jealousy over this with her little frosh guy friends until I realized that that's just how she is with everyone; but its me who gets the kisses, the love notes and the daily phone calls ( land-line era. ) Dante |