I read your post, and it struck a chord with me.

I love girl children more than... pretty much anything. I love having little girl friends. I live for those moments, when you pick her up and she melts into you, when you cradle her in your arms and it just feels so right, when your eyes meet in a brief instance of mutual understanding that says, "you are so special to me".

Yeah, when you finally head home after that wonderful evening or unforgettable weekend with her, things tend to feel a little bit empty, boring. I might even feel a little bit depressed the next day, purely from coming down from that high of spending time with her.

But it's so fucking worth it.

Here's the thing... you say you want to find long-term happiness. Well, your best chance as that is to accept your pedophilia. And by accept I mean get out there and own it. You love little girls. Spend time with them. Get to know them. Develop relationships with them.

Of course, you want to make sure you have friends - preferably ones who know about your sexuality and accept it - and you need to have interests, hobbies. Maybe you like music, maybe you play basketball, maybe you like to go camping, I don't know. But find stuff you like to do and focus on that when you're not with your girls.

But that said... the only way a true pedophile can find true, substantial, long-term happiness is - in my humble opinion - by letting children into his heart.

You know, people just have to follow their heart to the best of their ability, without crossing the law or the people around them. And I'm not doing either of those things by choosing to devote as much time as possible to those special girls in my life. I know my boundaries.

So far, there's:

1. Accept yourself, love girls, that's what you're supposed to do and don't let anyone tell you any different.

2. Have friends. Have other interests.

3. Mind the law, and others who may judge (if you wanna worry about that).

And there's one more piece of advice I want to give, re: long-term happiness.

Learn to love and appreciate children for who they are, not who you want them to be. Your relationship with your LGF is not going to mirror the adult-adult heterosexual relationships you see on TV because LGs are not women. Spend more time loving real children, and you may find your fantasies adapt and become more in line with their true nature.

Take care, infantile.

- Rainbow