Restaurant Girl continues to attach herself to me. :) She frequently sits next to me, occasionally sits on my knee, and is always wanting to be with me. I have devised so many plans to have more time with her, but they have yet to come to fruition. But what fortune it is that RG has concocted plans of her own which move much faster and smoother. No hassle of tiptoeing around perceptions as it is not I who is seeking out the girl, but the girl who is seeking me out.

It is ritual for her to give me candy. Still waiting for her to drive up in a van asking me to help her find her dog. I think I've got this whole pedophile thing backwards. :)

More time is to be spent with RG and she is becoming the single most important thing in my life, pushing aside what most would say should be important.

RG is my life and heart. I love her with all of my being. She has filled the void left by MLG's absence, and now my RG has shaped that space in my life to fit perfectly to her. There is such a definite attraction to me. How to even describe it? I turn events over and over in my mind and come up with no answer apart from genuine attraction, even on a protoseuxal level. The same was true of MLG, but RG is smarter. MLG was bold, but blunt and her more sexual interest in me was so overt as to be easy to shield against. RG is not so bold, but she is very subtle and clever. A blessing and a curse.

What fools claim that girls have no attraction, romantic or sexual? What fools claim that we pedos mix our fantasies into our views of reality? I imagine nothing when it comes to RG's interactions with me.


That girl would be very happy at the idea of a sleepover. I'd love to invite her to one at my place, but I don't know that her family would be so approving. They are not disapproving of our relationship as it exists now, in fact, they do much to encourage it, and I hope they at no point regret that encouragement. RG is happy and they are happy that RG is happy. I do much to help her and her family and they are appreciative. I am so blessed to have that little girl in my life. I only hope that all stays well as she grows up. I only hope that one day, she and I can be more than what society currently forces us to be. I can wait until she's legal. She is worth it.