GirlChat #606836
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Here's yet another citation for you.
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0108504/board/flat/9370202?p=7 I knew I was interested in other boys when I was six... I was already fantasizing about seeing them naked. When I was about nine a man of about 20-something sat next to me in a cinema and put his hand on my knee. I thought it was very funny that he had "missed" the arm-rest. When I looked at him he took his hand away as if it were burnt. Then he got up and left quickly. It was only after he had left that I suddenly realized that his hand on my leg had not been by accident and I understood immediately exactly what he had wanted to do. What was my reaction? Was I shocked, traumatized, scared? Not at all. I was disappointed that he hadn't stayed. I was not at all against the idea that he might have diddled me, and I was definitely excited at the idea that maybe he would have let me diddle him. Was I thinking about "love"? No, I was thinking pure sexuality... the age difference only made it more exciting. I had played "doctor" with kids my own age... but it would certainly have been more interesting to do it with someone who was more impressively "equipped". When I tell people that my first reaction was disappointment, they find it impossible to believe. They insist that I was traumatized, because that is the only thing their small-mindedness can comprehend. That is what can be expected in an age of hysteria. But the incident only left me curious and excited. As long as I was not being forced into something I didn't want ( which is paramount to rape) I see no reason for getting upset at all; I would just like to say that I am not a pedophile but I DO believe that if children have the right to say no... then they also should have the right to say yes! But oh wait....this doesn't count, right? |