end of a chapter (the opposite of a GM)

well, the last months i was getting along pretty good with a 11year old girl in the village, but for some reason she didn't belief me i'm in love with her, i tried to make it clear, even by declaring my love for her semi-public (i mean to people we know both) but still she doesn't beliefs me

things got worse from then off

a little bit being obsessed by her i still tried to talk to her, and being gentle to her, but she seemed to experience me as a burden, i decided to break contact with her to let it calm down

but when i tried to get in contact again, she told me she never wants to talk with me again, after a couple of weeks i'm now back able to get response when i say "hi" or ask how she's doing, but very rare and not much,

just like the other people i know tell me, i think it's all over and i should forget her because i'm starting to be bothersome to her,

i've told myself today to let her go because i think that's the best for her, and that way she'll be happier than have me as a burden all around her

i feel like falling into darkness

- t Sa Nanya -