A GM and my attraction

I know what you mean about feeling amped. Yesterday morning, after sleeping for the first time in four days, I was woken up at five in the morning by the little girl I mentioned when I first joined this forum--and I hadn't seen her in almost four months. I think she knew I was there and couldn't sleep. :-P She's seven--my favorte age--and absolutely adorable. (I'll call her "C".) I've been in the dumps myself, so it did a lot to set my mind straight. I actually slept seven hours last night!--a fucking miracle!

Nothing terribly exciting went on, but those in chat last night seemed to find this interesting: At one point C logged into her computer to chat with only person she's allowed--another little girl--and, unbeknownst to me, told her friend that she was hanging out with a "really cool cute boy". She then decided she needed to know my age, and shouted out, "Hey B, how old are you?"; at which her mom replied, "He's old." Passing by me to go spy on her daughter's conversation (which she later relayed to me), she said jokingly, "You know why she's asking that, don't you?--Kids these days!" So I guess I'm too old for her. :( :-P

In answer to your question, I believe my attraction fundamentally rooted in the body type, but that due to my experiences growing up and the culture I've been surrounded by, I'm also extremely attracted to LG's personalities--and, no doubt, their innocence. We have to be careful with that word, though, as it can imply a of bullshit sexual things: raw innocence is in no way tied to ignorance or sexual repression. It is a state of mind, a state of being, and a kind of stubborness against the cruelties of reality. It is not virginity. (It's almost always used with the sexual connotations, so in reality I'm just changing the popular definition; but to get anywhere in our cause I think it's necessary we teach people to distinguish between genuine innocence and culturally defined sexual innocence.)

Aesthetically, I'm most attracted to their faces: their slender cheeks and chins, their glossy button noses, their precious pouting lips, their bright wet eyes--you get the idea.

Physically, I'm most attracted to their torsos (doh!), legs, shoulders, and, of course, butts. I guess I like it all. :D

I think my attraction is probably somewhat different then yours since you seem to be attracted to women as well. For me, 99% of women are no different than men.

I get around a little girl I'm attracted to and it's literally hard for me to breathe. The world is a rainbow and I'm entirely at her mercy. (Which seriously fucks me up because otherwise I'm a "tough guy" that doesn't feel shit.)

That's why I often suspect my attraction for little girls is far stronger than what most heterosexuals for women. Men and women alike seem to prefer as little personality and expression as possible. It's like they're just hoping their mates keeps their mouths shut long enough that they can fuck without pissing one another off. Obviously there are exceptions, but I still feel like the majority of people out there--especially men--don't have a clue what it's like to feel genuine love--let alone a nurturing love.

Dao