Re: I have this big smile!!!

I am glad I could make you smile :)

To clear up one minor misconception that my pervious post seems to have conveyed; I have always let the lgs that I have loved know that I cared for them and that I would be there for them, I simply did it in a way that was as a friend or an 'uncle' type, and tried very hard to not let on that I truly loved them or wanted more than friendship. The reason for this is fear, fear of societal laws and the consequences of breaking those laws.

Like you my LGF was and is the aggressor in our relationship, even though she says it's because I was giving off hints like a 'Saturday Night Live Jeopardy skit' (her words after we had watched one such skit). Most likely I was but in all honesty it was unconscious and unplanned, not that I didn't want her to know but the as fear was there (and still is in some ways) not only for myself but for her as well. I mean what she would go through if anyone ever found out she loves me and I love her would not only be devastating to me but to her as well. The second worst nightmare I have is that some how we are found out and after all the therapy and other things she comes out brained washed that she was taken advantage of. I could go on and on about all the scenarios of how that might happen but I'll cut it short.

I do hope you are right about her loving me forever, because I know I'll love her for that long and then some. If you caught my first post then you know that things are a little difficult for her and I due to her father's suspicions.

You are welcome for the wishes, more than anything else I have read here your post has given me hope, that someday I and my LGF will be together and we will beat the odds against us.

Thanks again.