Semi-retirement from GC--new project--apologies

Given the nature of GC of late, I will not be spending nearly as much time here. It is time for me to move on. I have progressed, and there are certain people here who drag GC down and hold it back, who stand in the way of the personal fulfillment of others and block any real progress in the community. The fact that most people here ignore them or find their abuse of others amusing is indicative of the community's mentality. There are people here who gossip, who are jealous, who are clearly selfish, infantile people who shouldn't be anywhere NEAR a child. I can no longer abide ignoring these individuals--they do not bode well for the activists, nor for girl love as a whole.

GC is somewhat like a drug, and some drugs contain poisons. If you're addicted, you may attempt to deny the poisons and concentrate on the high, even as the poison is slowly hurting you, and that's the situation with many of us here (though a good deal of GC addicts are in denial about that.) I have recognized the poison and decided I can do without the drug, since the poison it contains is too harmful to ignore.

There is an obvious stagnation here as well, a kind of status quo that many GCers have themselves becomes addicted to. I think, deep down, many people here are opposed to change. Oh, they may say they want change, but they tear down people who attempt to make real progress. Some of them can be subtle in their attacks, but if you pay attention you can see it. Others are fairly blatant about it.

Anyway, for anyone I may have offended during this argument (other than those who deserved it), I apologize. But clearly, when a community values their clowns and jesters over their "knights," the activists, there is a problem and that is apparently the case. For example, I've certainly butted heads with Lindsay a few times, but overall he's an example of what most of us should be like--brave, caring, and proactive. But I've seen too many people nitpick at him behind his back. My instincts tell me it also happens to me.

When this community is ready to grow up collectively, then we will get somewhere. And don't give me the "that's insulting to children" spiel--children have negative qualities along with the positive ones, just like everyone else. That's another problem this community faces, and the antis are right about this--too many of you are steeped in denial. You fail to see things as they are and see them as you want them to be. Many of you also fail to call a spade a spade, and that's something I will never do . . . which is why I'm sure some of you dislike me and would be happy to see me leave permanently, but I won't do that to the real friends that I have here.

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Anyway, I am beginning a new project I've been wanting to do for some time--a GL comic. But rather than do the "Heart's Desire" one, which I started but found not to my liking, I am using the Melody Moonbeam character--revamped into a more realistic looking child--in a sort of psychedelic, freeform exploration of the issues surrounding GL and of little girls in general. The visual inspiration will come from 60s and 70s psychedelic art, especially the rock posters of the Fillmore and the underground comix of those decades, and samples of my comic will be posted on my site, though not the comic in it's entirety.

What I'm aiming for is a series of graphic novels using Melody. Each of the covers of these will be modelled around a certain iconic item--a magazine, an ad, etc.--just as the Heavy Melody one was modelled on Heavy Metal magazine. The storyline is going to be free-form and experimental, more of a stream of consciousness approach, but it WILL deal with various facets of this issue. The overall series will simply by titled 'Melody Moonbeam.'

I will also continue working on Closetleap. I had plans to take it in aslightly different direction but realized that it wouldn't work, and so I'm just going to finish the book in its current manifestation. I'm shooting for wrapping it up around the end of this year.

Now, I've got work to do. Take care.

Todd