My thoughts, and a recent GM

I'm a pedophile, and thus am sexually attracted to children (exclusively females). I also care about children (of either gender) in a more emotional way tied to mutual respect and common interest.

While I have a wide variety of sexual fantasies, I feel far more strongly the simple desire to hold someone I love in my arms in a tender embrace.

A recent GM, (the first one I've seen fit to express here) illustrates the simple pleasures I find so rewarding.

Two beautiful girls, one aged 6 and the other probably very close to that age were sitting with a woman, probably the mother of one of them. I was talking with my karate instructor, and noticed one of them staring at me. She had the most interesting hairstyle I've seen in quite some time, with the bangs braided into rows with the back forming a kind of off center braided pony tail. It was really something.

In a moment of uncharcteristic boldness, I walked over and said hello. I was still in uniform, so that was what drew her eye. We talked for a while about karate, with me explaining ranks and whatnot. I pointed out my instructor to them before I went to change.

When I was in my street clothes, I was elated to see that they were still there, the woman discussing getting the girls involved in my class. I stuck around a bit longer, and the girl with the interesting hairstyle and I kept catching one another's eye and smiling. That girl's smile was more pleasurable than any mere sexual climax. It was warm and affectionate, all the things I really want out of any relationship, with adults or children.

When the time finally came for me to leave, I looked back just as I walked out the door, and found her looking after me, and we shared one last smile. I don't care if she saw it as flirting. All I need to know is it was special, and it made me feel very good inside. I hope I'll see her again. It's moments like these that I wish I weren't so bad at remembering names.