are you happy you are a pedophile: is it ok to call you that

I am happy to be a pedophile. I am not happy that I can’t be 100% open to everyone. But, I am open to almost all of my peers. They call me a pedophile in jest, in joke and at the same time it is an acknowledgement that it is okay for me to like little girls. There are 20 to 30 people who know my sexual orientation. Probably more, for I’ve made no requirement of secrecy for those whom I have told.

have any mental health problems

No

if you are very mentally healthy: do you think that this is just a very ..personal choice that a very unpersonal world doesnt overwelmingly accept

It is as much of a choice as it is a choice to be homosexual. In other words, it is not a choice. If it was a choice then I wouldn’t be a pedophile. Why? Because I use to hate my myself for liking and lusting over little girls. Now that I have embraced my orientation I can’t say for sure if I’d change it in order to make my life easier. The fact is, I can’t change it, so I won’t wish or think about what it would be like to agree with the status quo.

how low ...hehe, do you go?

I am attracted to girls as young as 3, 4, or more likely, 6. But, I wouldn’t consider a relationship with them unless they were 10 years or older (hypothetically if it was legal to date). Friendships I’d be more than happy to form with any age girl, but 11 year olds are my favorite.

[would] you accept a world around you that would accept 4 or older girls having sex? would you feel right at home

I don’t know for certain. But, I believe I would. However, I am still wary of older men who hang around little girls. Not all men who do so. Just some. So, maybe I’m not being hypocritical, maybe I am. I mean, as a pedophile maybe I can sense other pedophiles; both good and bad.
I hope I’d fit right into that hypothetical (future???) world. In fact, I believe I would.

isnt their wierdness ..or was there ever...when you were younger??

I don’t remember weirdness when I was a kid. I was an odd child. Not into the same games (didn’t even really like games) as other children. But I don’t remember feeling weird around adults. As a child of 10 and up I felt more comfortable around many adults than I did around my peers.
I also see the same type of thing in many children I’ve been around. Girls and boys. Even the boys can be super touchy and huggy. I loath little boys, but it shows that children are not weirded out by adults or one-way/two-way affection.

do you think of under 18 people as adults?

No I do not. I believe people are children well into their 20’s and 30’s. We still like to play, we are not humble, we are still making major decisions, learning lots and lots. We are like children, but the world allots us more responsibility. We are not humble and reflective. We are more impulsive, more energetic. We are not calm. We are children raising children.

would you refer to them [children] as sir or madam?
Yes, I did very often when I worked at a place where I had contact with children at a register. They deserve the same level of respect I give every other customer. In fact, they sometimes deserve more, since they are often unsure of how to read the menu or how to count change. They need encouragement and this builds confidence in them.

are you in touch with yourself ,who you were, when you were growing up?

I consider myself to be in touch with myself now. I know who I am and I accept this.
As a younger person, I did not know myself so well. Or I hated much of that I did know. Now that which I had hated has become my ally, an integral part of my being.
I am no longer seeking a mold to please others, but only to please myself. This self-centered way of life has lead me to be happy with myself and this happiness has lead others to be happy with me.

did you lose any of that [being in touch with yourself.]

I’ve only gained it as I’ve learned to think rationally and learn from my experiences.

are you like me? are you old.

No.
I am in my very, very early twenties.

are you a good person?

Good is such a relative thing. But I’m not going to get into that.
I cuss, I drink, I masturbate, I love and lust for little girls.
I comfort, I am nice to others, I say please and thank you.
I don’t steal, I don’t cheat, I rarely lie, I seek and give forgiveness.

Am I good? Probably.
Am I bad? Probably.
Am I Christian? No. But does that make me bad?

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