Why it is strange and weird.

Why is it weird for me to tell her I love her deeply.

Why is it weird for me to care for her more than a "normal" twenty year old "should".

Why is it weird that the greatest joy in life for me is seeing her happy, smile, laugh.

Why is it weird that I enjoy the attention she gives me, when her eyes light up when she sees me, the way she loves to cuddle with me, the way she says "I love you" randomly, the little kisses she gives me at random moments.

Why is it weird for me to return her affection to make her happy, rub her back and massage he shoulders, cuddle her and tell her "I love her", listen to everything she has to say fully interested.

It's weird because she is ten. That makes perfect sense doesn't it! Apparently being ten and me being twenty she doesn't deserve my love and affection and I am not allowed to give her mine or accept hers.

If she was eighteen and I was twenty-eight I'd be allowed to fuck her all I want with her consent and not care for her more than a fuck buddy and no one would care. But since she is ten and I am twenty it is forbidden for me to be even allowed to love her and that is all I want to do is show her my love for her.

Ah well one day she will see me as weird or just as her little girl crush and move on. Probably to get used and tricked by the dick heads society loves to raise. And knowing the bad area she lives in that is a very likely possibility and I try my best to prevent this by educating her.

I am such a monster.