Weekend GM

Surprise, surprise, I actually have a GM to share! Whee! Happened on Friday and it went like this...

I was working with my friend (the one who knows I'm a girl-lover) at a different locale, it was the two of us and one other guy who's not in the know about me. Well, we had a group of four girls come in around six pm, all about 17-19, very pretty. I helped them out, getting a chance to chat with each one. Very enjoyable to look at, and varied in appearance too; two blondes and two brunettes, all of differing heights/weights/skin tones etc. They were all dressed fashionably and succeeded in bringing out my inner flirt a bit.

I was already pretty happy but then in came a family of five; Dad, two sons and two daughters, about age seven. I had to let my friend help them out at first, the girls were just too adorable! Both brunettes, one in a white top and a jeans skirt, the other in a yellow top and blue shorts. The girl in the yellow top captured me right off the bat. She
was a wiggle-puppy, and had a great smile. We got them situated and I was glad for the momentary quiet we had after that; I couldn't take my eyes off her. I watched them interact with each other, my favorite was squirming around in her chair, occasionally her shirt rode up a bit and I caught a flash of tummy. Several times she caught me looking at her and just gazed calmly back at me or returned my smile.

They left after much too short a time, thanking us for our help over and over. And now those of you who want just a nice girl-moment can stop reading, this is where the introspective BS starts.

We'd had quite a few nice looking young ladies in over the course of the day, I helped out as many as I could. The group of four teens were just the closest in time to the yellow-shirted wiggle-puppy and company, I included them mostly for contrast I guess. But after wiggle-puppy left...

I have to say here that I, um, responded, physically, only once during the day, and it was to my favorite girl. I'm sure my co-worker noticed, if not any overt signs then the fact that I kept looking over at her and was not quite following the conversation he was trying to have with me. After she left I was in a funk for a few hours. It really brought home to me how my AoA has changed over time, and how difficult or even impossible it could be to have a "normal" relationship with someone remotely close in age to my ever-advancing decreptitude. The attraction to this little beauty was so strong it worried me, and actually kind of made me glad that I've arranged my life in a monk-like manner.

And it was different as well, with my friend there. He knows my AoA but it made me uncomfortable and embarassed to have him really see it for the first time. I'm not sure what he thinks now. I wanted to talk to him about how cute she was, how it'd be heavenly to just talk and get to know her but since he's pretty much an anti-social and non-sexual guy I knew it would be pointless and possibly scary to him. My mind was in a whirl for hours with all kinds of thoughts... By the end of the day things were normal between us but at the time he seemed a bit put off. For a while there I was worried that his acceptance of me might go down the drain and I could lose the only trusted friend I have right now...

Anyway, that's my girl-moment to share from the weekend. Make of it what you will. I didn't share it right away because I'm still trying to figure this stuff out, I guess.

But, damn, she was so adorable...

:-/