Hate sucks

Hate is way too intense an emotion to feel about something like that. I don't think pedophilia should be totally accepted. I mean, if you think you got it then yeah accept that you got it but that doesn't mean it's some kind of permanent thing or that it's necessarily faultless. But at the same time, people demonize it which is bloody ridiculous because pretty much everyone's got their shallow little physical fixations and mental fixations in regards to people they're attracted to. It's something to work on as you evolve.

A totally evolved person's not going to be a pedophile, they're going to be someone without sexual preferences save for mental traits which they recognize aren't determined by physical traits, and to not let associations between physical and mental states bias the way they evaluate other individuals.

I'm not sure if the advice I can give on this is good, since it's kind of depressing: but don't get too absorbed. MySpace, LiveJournal, individual friends... they can be a risky disappointment. It's better to associate less indepth with a larger variety of people, and be haphhazard in regards to making friends, lest they disappoint you. That's my approach, though the common populace would probably say it sucks, they really don't have experience in regards to divisionism and stuff when they conclude this.

It's fine to fantasize. I'm an atheist too, it doesn't mean I don't wish there was an afterlife. That'd be awesome to have somewhere you continue existing if you died. Heck, even if it had to be hell, I'd prefer that to just not existing at all. There's nothing wrong with dreaming about how nice that'd be for heaven to exist and for dead people to still be around in some form. It's a natural extension of your love merging with your imagination.

Anyway, the answer I think, is to love it and hate it at the same time, but in either case: to tone both down a LOT. Too many people nowadays are 'emo'. It's become popular to show emotions and get emotionally involved with things in response to too many people hiding emotions and not caring about it. But people have overdone this and lost their objectivity so the anti-emo countermovement has started to restore sensibility to the way people value stuff.

What's to love isn't really being pedo, it's being a freethinker. That's a term which can apply to things besides not being biased by religious dogma, but by societal dogma and prejudices as well. What's to love is being able to honestly know you love someone for things besides sex, and not having to worry about whether you're biased by sex, because you acknowledge the parts of you which are sexual responses and thus can tell the differences between those and asexual reactions to people.

Similarly, what's to hate isn't really being pedo either. What's to hate is excessive fixation on materiality, which pedophilia sort of is, but to keep in mind, it's not the recognition that girls are beautiful that's bad, just the idea that only they can be beautiful or that beauty outside them doesn't matter. That bridges into obsession and that's the thing to try to not get into the habit of doing.