I Owe You Nothing and You Deserve Even Less

"I just want some answers and not to go back there ever again."

You. That's what you said, from up there, anonymously on your righteous mountaintop.

You only want "some" answers. Which of those do you want, dear anonymous?

If you really want answers, then you will come down from your cross, move among the people and find them; ferret the truths from the fictions, before you retreat, again.

I'm not going to answer your questions, here, beyond saying that if you are willing to search, there are more than enough places in addition to this place in which you can seek answers. I am sorry to report, however, that I seriously doubt you shall find any answers which are compact, neat, and as perfect as you might like to find.

You want answers and then are so audaciously righteous as to insist upon just the kind of answers you want to hear. Why would anyone here, for example, answer your first question any differently than would you?

As I am not neither of the people you describe as your victimizers, nor bear any resemblance to them, I don't owe you answers for their actions. While your impolite and ignorant inquiry obviously begs for an answer, you do not deserve mine, for you have not earned it.

Not for you, but for me, however, I have answered some of your questions, for I have asked them of myself, in another place, which you may visit, if, in your high-minded detachment, you deem it worthy of your journey and sojourn.

http:littlegirllover.insanejournal.com

Myself, I don't care.

I'm going to leave you with a quote that is one of my favorites with regard to those who aver they'd like answers, they'd like peace, they'd like understanding, but are only willing to go so far as lip service. I'm sure he didn't have in mind pedophilia or your questions when he said it, but still, it applies the same - if you take the time to listen, that is:

"'Of course, let us have peace,' we cry, 'but at the same time let us have normalcy, let us lose nothing, let our lives stand intact, let us know neither prison nor ill repute nor disruption of ties...' There is no peace because there are no peacemakers. There are no makers of peace because the making of peace is at least as costly as the making of war -- at least as exigent, at least as disruptive, at least as liable to bring disgrace and prison and death in its wake." - Dan Berrigan

That is all. I apologize, here at the end, for my impolity (which ought be a word, but is not) and combativeness.

Good luck with all of that.