Also, FWIW

In regard to this bit: "I wish one day I'll find someone who sees me as you see them..", you would be surprised (maybe) for the limited few who have seen their way to "getting it," loved me, and to whom I have been attracted, I did indeed see them the same way, and loved them as much, even more, than any little girl - although neither of them were children, either.

I'm not necessarily saying that you could or should see your way to falling in love with a pedophile, but just saying it does happen just the way you wish.