No

In your long list there is only one thing that cannot change or be changed:

- I'm pedophile (girllover)

I'm 50 now, but let's have a brief view of Sancho at 22:

- parents divorced

- father dead (he drank himself to death)

- puked out by family, i am an atheist, they are very religious

- traumatized after being drafted and send to some fucking war

- no job, no money, no home

- on drugs and alcohol

Life seemed hopeless in those days, but everything changed and i slowly became the happy person i am now.
Come to terms with the fact you are a pedophile, the rest of your problems are temporary.

Take care,