The good parts: You saved a child's life. You are a good person. You are a benefit to our species.

The bad part: You (and me and all CLs, no matter what we do) will always be a monster in society's eyes.

Sad, but true.

As for your problems, most--if not all--of us have been there. You are truly not alone. Please keep coming here and sharing with us. You will find friends here.

Love and Peace