similar story here too

One of my best friends has a daughter who just turned 2. I visit them all the time, and she knows me as Uncle ***. These friends know I like young girls, but know I'm not attracted to their daughter. When I'm there, I pick her up and kiss her, and blow bubbles on her belly. I like holding her. She's the only girl I get to hold now, so I value the time with her. Everyone jokes that she's my girlfriend, and its kinda true. Everything I do with her, I'd do with a girl in my AoA or a legal girl. Sometimes I make innuendos like "are you cold or just happy to seem me?" Sometimes I flirt with her mom who looks 12, telling her I need to see boobs. Instead of flashing me, she pulls her daughter's top up. Its funny. I'm just afraid if I don't find a girl soon, I'll be attracted to her when she hits puberty, and I don't wanna lose my friendships with them because of it.