Don't worry, I'm not going to kill myself. Like I said, I couldn't do it if I wanted to. But I can't control what my mind does. My mind has a mind of it's own. :) Wow, that sounds crazy. No, I'm not on any drugs but I feel like I am. This last month or so has been one long bad trip, man.

Oh man, you had to lay that terminal little girl trip on me. Okay, it helped a little. I have a little girl in my life who loves me, and I love her so much it scares me. This is K, the girl I took trick-or-treating. You would love her; she's always so happy, always smiling. I wish you could see her smile--it's mischievous and sweet at the same time. She's probably the only thing still keeping me sane. Her mom is the one who asked me to go to the movies last night, by the way. Big blue eyes, kind of scraggly brown hair. She's a little elfin girl. She always runs up and gives me a big hug, jumps in my arms. She's braver than I am. Now you got me gushing, Sigma. Egads, I sound like aR. Sorry, thanks for this. I'm not so bad now.