I have to give 2 'first' crushes...

The reason why, is the first one was when I was a LB myself, so from a ped point of view I'm not sure it counts...

Ok - my first crush was on a LG in my class when I was 9 yo. I can remember that I thought that she was the most perfect creature on the planet, and I listlessly followed her around everywhere.

She had brunette hair that was so long that she could sit on it. I can still see her crystal clear in my mind, and maybe a part of me is still deeply in love with her, somehow. I know that I certainly was at the time, and I also knew at the time that the attraction was both romantic and sexual.

The 2nd crush? That was when I was 13 yo, and I had a massive crush on a 10 yo neighbor of mine. That was actually when I came to the (rather abrupt, and distressing, at the time) realization that I was indeed a ped.

She was a beautiful redhead, and she loved me back, as well. As far as she was concerned, I was her boyfriend.

Nothing happened sexually or anything, we kissed (on her insistence), but it was only pecks on the lips.

We were inseparable, and spent nearly all our spare time together.

Unfortunately, after about 9 months, her parents decided that our relationship wasn't acceptable, and banned us from seeing each other again.

I still think about her sometimes, and wonder how she is, and what she's doing with her life...

*Sigh* Oh well...

Such is life...

T.