M+M

Two. M1 and M2 were sisters. I was 16 and they were neighbors. M1 and M2 were 6 and 7 respectively. M1 was very much my heartthrob.

At first, I did not want to babysit the neighbor's kids: I was totally into other things like driving a friends car in group pink slip racing (he was the Wallet, I started out as one of 4 jammers). But, one night I was trapped and had to babysit. That night changed my life for the rest of my life! So to speak.

The oldest boy was into electric trains in the basement, the baby girl was into sleeping, and the M1-M2 set was very much into any antics I could come up with to keep them entertained. Especially M1.

Eventually, M1 and I made it into her shared bedroom while everyone else was watching TV or sleeping. Although nothing happened between us, it almost did. M1 loved the attention she was getting while M2 was not. Anything I wanted to explore, I could if I wanted to. My heart pounded at the thought. Yet, still, I was not focused enough to do anything but talk about things.

A week later, I told my friend the car supplier , that I wouldn't be driving that night, I had to babysit again. I am sure I could have gotten out of it, but I truly didn't want to. I wanted to see M&M again. This time, I wanted to explore a bit with M2 but, although we spent some quality time in their shared bedroom, M2 just wasn't into my possible explorations. So, I gave up on her and went back to playing interesting games with M1 who loved it.

I will not say that M1 and I ever got past infatuation with each other. We certainly did nothing illegal. What we did do had me coming back to babysit any time the neighbor wanted me to. For months, M1 and I shared a special bond, using each other for our own reasons. Again, nothing illegal went down between us. (Even if it did, which it didn't, I wouldn't tell you. But, like I said, what I like, isn't illegal.) M1 loved my attention and I loved hers.

I eventually re-discovered the adrenalin rush of car chases. I moved on; M&M eventually moved away. Yet, as I write this, I can recall each precise minute of my time with M1. The sight of her dumpy beige dress, her thin blondish brown hair, her impish smile, her incessant jumping on things for the fun of being naughty. I recall her jumping onto her bed and turning her big eyes towards me and ask me if I wanted to have some more fun. I knew what she meant but it was the first time she instigated things. Again, let me be as clear as I can be: we did nothing illegal. I did not touch her, she did not touch me, there was nothing illegal then nor now. I tell you this not because I am trying to protect this forum, but because we actually did not do anything illegal. But she was making sure I would continue to babysit her and her brother and sisters.