Re: High school.

QUOTE: "I can't believe how crazy i am. Look i am in my late 20's and instead of going to work like all other adults. I would like to go to high school and be able to hang with the 15-18 years old at least."

Why do you seem so fixated on going back to high school? Is it just because you want to be able to socialize with adolescent girls? Unfortunately due to legal (legal drining ages, legal driving ages..etc)and culturally imposed age segregation practices it is extremely difficult to be in an environment where you can interact with teenage girls as peers. Most situations where you can interact with them involve you being in a "position of authority" such as a teacher, boss at work, coach for a sports team or youth councellor where crossing certain boundaries can get you fired or thrown in jail. With this in mind I can certainly understand the FANTASY of being able to be a student again but if you yearn for that too much you will only cause yourself anguish because IT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN. What you should do is try work towards building a society with less age segregation and more tolerance towards ephebophilic relationships so that you can BOTH be able to hang around adolescent girls AND be a productive working adult.

QUOTE: "I know i can never be a student again but i would do anything to go back there like being a teacher. Being a teacher would mean i am a person of authority and it would become illegal for me to have sex with a 16-17 years old"

Some MAAs can handle (and enjoy) working with minors while refraining from crossing certain lines, others cannot and this fact has caused numerous debates on this form including some that yours truly has participated in. If you think handle it go for it...I know I sure can't. I had a weekened job for a while where a worked with attractive teen girls while being in a position of authority over them and I hated it. If I were a high school teacher...particularily a high school with lots cute, caring, adoralbe well brought up girls wearing catholic schhol girl type uniforms (with the kilts and bare legs)...OHH MAN I don't want to think about it...I would probably go nuts.

QUOTE: "If i am not mentally ill i wonder what is it. I know that at 15-16 they are not really children anymore and it's not really pedophilia and if i wanted to be with a 16 years old they can do nothing about it if i am not in a position of thrust such as a teacher but still it's little schoolgirl who are not completly out of their childhood."

This passage confuses me. First of all why do you wonder if you are mentally ill? Please give more details. If have experience dealing with OCD and autism (autism is not really a mental illness but you know what I mean). Secondly why do at first say that 16 year ols are not really children then seem to imply that they are towards the end of the paragraph? As far as being with a 16 year old well that all depends on the AOC of your jurisdiction AND if your jurisdiction does not have ADDITIONAL LAWS governing sex between adults and minors besides just the AOC. Canada (AOC 16) has a law banning "sexual exploitation" of 16 to 17 year olds with exploitation not being very well defined in the opinion of some people. Many Latin American countries have legal provisions that can allow for an adult to face charges for sexual contact with minors who are above the age of consent (be it 14,15 or what have you) but below the age of 18. What I am trying to say is make sure that you do your homework.