If it makes you feel better, Roc. You're not alone

My life is pretty miserable too. But I won't be going into details.

Just trust that my days are filled with steady stress and uncertainty. And yes.... Most of my troubles have as their foundation - our despised orientation. But good thing lessons are always available to be learned. Too bad I don't learn as often, and as much, as I wish I did/could. Next life will hopefully be better. Hopefully I'll be better constituted in my next life. Sometimes (often) it's the only hope I got - dieing, that is. Interesting how people (myself in this case) are able to find strength and hope in the oddest (morbid, in my case) of things.

Wish you all the best, brother.