Re: Thanks Fucifer Please check out my points here

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This is sound advice. When we get knocked down hard, there is a tendency to withdraw. Especially when hopelessness comes Youre right, and in fact, I am starting to feel better already. Ive had the motivation to even get cooking food again, Im about to make a big soup which will take a couple of hours of my labor. The sort of thing that seems hard now but I will be happy about when Im done. Likewise, those little tasks, Ill be trying to stay on top of them and this staying busy thing is one of the best things you can do. Probably better than any anti-depressant.

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LGL loves me, I know, it is great! I will come to appreciate that even more so, than I already do! I feel like Im mourning a death, so I have to actually give myself time to be sad, because honestly, the death is not of another but felt inside of myself. When Im done grieving the clarify of her love will be so bright, and I think I see how it will still bring me Joy.

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Thank you for recommending I keep my eyes open for the small things. They can give the biggest meaning. This point in particular is going to be very useful in building my identity as a person again in the future.

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Yes, well I think the take away point here is to remember my options, remember the role I play in the world, and remember the positive influence I have, and how to make good of circumstances that arent ideal. Anyone could learn from that!

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She wont forget me you are right. Were still in contact, and she said to me, I love you, in her language, and taught me what it meant, and how to pronounce it. She said it to just a couple of hours ago, and that Im the nicest person ever. Im really thankful she has come into my life.