Re: Please help

To start with, I don't trust you. Why? Because I don't trust ANYBODY with my attraction to young girls. Many of us are paranoid out of necessity: Find any normal blog that is talking about a pedophile and you will see how much absolute hatred there is for us. I am a Christian. I have Christian friends all over the world. Many are patient with others, forgiving of their mistakes, and genuinely loving toward people. BUT... if they are commenting on a blog about a pedophile, they turn into monsters themselves and discuss how they would like to cut a pedophile's balls off, or torture him, or kill him, etc. Some of the comments from otherwise "nice" people are rabid and nearly psychopathic.

Society equates us with child-rapists. Most of us here would give our lives to prevent harm to a child. I honestly believe I feel more affection for some children than do their own parents. They are curious, creative, care-free, innocent, trusting. There are many non-pedophiles who could say they feel the same way.

The only difference is that I am attracted to certain attributes of a young girl's body and am generally turned off by adult women's bodies.
Adult women start sagging and drooping, have cellulite, often have grotesque vaginal areas, have too much hair, and most importantly, they have a lot of learned negativity in their personalities. I am sure the female pedos here could critique me much the same way. A young girl has breasts that are perfectly shaped, erect, "in place," firm. A little girl with no breasts is just as attractive to me - I view her like I view a rosebud that has not yet opened all the way - beautiful already but with potential for full awakening. A little girl's skin is flawless. Her body hair is non-existent or only very slight. They don't have adult smells about themselves yet. In short, they are perfect. But again, the most important thing I am attracted to is their trusting and innocent personalities. They have not learned cynicism from society yet. They love unconditionally ("love" in an emotional sense). They are genuine.

Regarding myself: You would never know I am attracted to little girls. I have a normal job, I go to church, I have done college, I mow my grass, do laundry, eat normal meals, pick my nose, and do all kinds of other "normal" activities. My shit smells no better and no worse than yours. I have been involved in social circles both in "high society" and "low." I've attended operas and rock concerts. I have participated in sports. I've been involved in politics.

All the while, I have pretended to my friends and family that I am not a pedophile. I am not "exclusive" and have had girlfriends my age, but generally, I am not attracted to women my age. I even pretended to myself that I was not a pedo for years. I was shocked and surprised occasionally to find myself attracted to a little girl. I even hated myself for that for a long time. It was only fairly recently that I have been able to accept my orientation and be comfortable with myself.

I will answer questions if you ask them here, as long as they don't ask for identifiable information. I will not email you, even using "anonymous" email services, simply because I don't trust them. Here at least, I have already posted enough that I am already committed...